January 27, 2016
I’ve been writing every day in order to push through some boundaries I’ve felt stuck on for years. Last November felt really amazing, rough at times during the NaNoWriMo challenge, but I really found a rhythm of joy with my daily journaling about my experience. I've experimented with format, and content, and different times of day. Here are little things that writing every day has surfaced for me:
I don’t always have much to say
I knew that I wouldn’t always have a ton to say. I post every day on my personal blog, I cross post stuff that may have a little more substance, but at it’s core, this is a personal journey that I’m sharing publicly. I’m not exactly sure what the destination is, I only know that I am learning stuff every single day even if all it is, is to recall my day and put it down in writing. Pushing words out even when I don’t have a lot of things I think others will care about is a growing thing. I’m happy that I’m writing what’s real in my little world.
Writing has become my meditation
For a while I explored a more traditional form of meditation, and it was good. My dad was a big advocate for the value of meditation and used to impress upon me that I should make habit of it. I was never ery good at sticking with it. I always assumed that meditation came in a very specific format. I write these daily journals. I write for work. I write ideas and things that may never see the light of day, or that may surface some day in a more thoughtful, longer format post. What I find most beautiful is when I left my day job in 2013 I said, “I just want to write.” I didn’t know what that meant, or what I would do to make that happen, but I almost didn’t even realize that I’m doing exactly what I set out to do. Every time I sit down to write, I feel like a kid pretending to be a writer. I have off days, but that’s usually from other stuff. Writing helps work through that stuff. I can’t pinpoint if there was a transition of writing becoming my meditation, or if it’s always been there, and I just had to incubate it. Writing
is my meditation. That makes me smile.